Feminine or Goddess energy delves into the archetypal Goddesses: creation, birth, death, wisdom. As with masculine energy, this is not subject to only women to tap into. In fact, as I mentioned that I was fairly comfortable invoking the God, so do I know men who are fairly comfortable communing with the Goddess aspect. Balance (for me) is a key element in my personal spiritual happiness.
There are many ways to consider Goddess energy. As with my post on God energy, these ways may not necessarily be yours. And that is totally fine. We can go through the common triple goddess phases: Maiden, Mother, Crone. But I find that there is more to feminine energy than these phases indicate. There is also a Warrior element that can be found in Goddess mythos. Think Sehkmet, Kali, Coatlique, Diana, Artemis, Athena, The Morrigan, Valkries, etc.
Maybe it is because I am a female, but I seem to see a lot of darkness in Goddess energy. It isn’t exactly a bad thing. Not that all God stories are light and airy, but Goddesses can be downright scary. The moral of this little note is to make sure you do not underestimate the energy you are working with.
After studying moon work, maybe I should have started on feminine studies, but I have actually come to the conclusion that I have worked with “male” centered energy for the past few years at least. I have taken on the role of priest in my coven as we have not had one. I feel as comfortable calling upon God energy as I do calling upon Goddess energy. Which probably also means that I do not need to do this lesson for myself.
Except that I do want to delve deeper into this aspect of my magickal path. Understanding and knowledge are a big part of my life and this is something that I would like to understand better.
This month and next month will be the only times that I intend to bring up the more religious aspects of Paganism. And these will not exactly be religious other than speaking of Gods and Goddesses. While I feel called to certain deities, I am not a religious person. I feel there is an energy we can call upon. We can give this energy some sort of form by using various deities as a focal point, but for the most part, I simply refer to it as The Universe. I do not worship this energy, but I do acknowledge it.
This is not the belief of every Pagan and I absolutely respect that. If you feel more comfortable with a specific series of Gods and Goddesses, then you need to continue with your religious practices. I fully believe that what everyone feels is right for them, then that is Truth for them. That includes Christianity, Atheists, Buddhists, Islam, etc. I may not share your beliefs, but I will defend your right to believe what you need to.
So, with that out of the way, on to Masculine Energy.
I believe everyone has a combination of masculine and feminine energy. Maybe different combinations. Some have more male or more female aspects. But, somewhere within all of us, we have access to both energies.
Even Yin has a little Yang and Yang has a little Yin.
Now to get really confusing. What I may consider to be God energy may not be recognized as masculine energy by everyone. I have known some Dianic pagans who do not recognize male energy at all. I found the concept interesting, but a little unbalanced for my own needs. It was the other end of the spectrum from Christianity’s overly male-oriented beliefs. With my own experiences with Christianity, I know that I require a balance of male and female influences.
What IS God energy? How is it different from Goddess energy? I associate God energy with sun and daytime. Summer. Heat. Passion. The physical. Where the Goddess IS knowledge, He is the embodiment of learning. These are what I feel when I feel God energy in the Circle.
*A note on Warrior aspect. Most of my Pagan friends would place this in the category of God and masculine magick. However, when I need to feel strong and protective, I call upon the Mother Goddess. Kali/Coatlique/Athena/Sehkmet are the ones that come to my mind. There are, of course, many others. There is nothing as ferocious and frighteningly protective as a Mother defending her own. I will go into this more when I work with Goddess magick next month.
Now, look into yourself and see within you what you feel would be considered masculine energy. This will not match up with my description of God aspects. Everyone is different and will view male and female energies differently. This month I will be meditating on the God/male parts of me.
I am rounding off my Moon Month with a discussion on moon magick. This actually ties in with my post, last week, on the moon’s personalities. I will also be mentioning what moon phase I am working with when I post spellwork on my Spells page.
Moon magick is not just setting up a ritual or a Circle. You can soak up the moon’s goodness by just sitting outside and enjoying the moonlight. I will often bless items by letting them sit outside during the full moon.
For May’s full moon, I have decided to do a slightly more formal ritual than my usual casual rite. I am using an idea from Wicca: A Guide For The Solitary Practitioner by Scott Cunningham. I am toying with the idea of raising energy with chanting. I think that will depend on how many people are able to make it. Starhawk has some amazing group chants in Spiral Dance. Or I may use chakra chants.
The past four weeks have been a great reminder for me on how much I work with the Moon and all of her phases.
I recently decided to step away from my coven for a year. I feel called to spend some time teaching myself so I can better teach those who have come to our group. This leave will be starting at Imbolc (February 2). Imbolc is a time of new beginnings and it seemed like the perfect date to start my inner journey into more advanced studies.
I am pretty excited about this and plan on writing about my advanced year and a day experience. I haven’t decided if I want to go about it on a weekly or daily basis. I am still working out some of the details on what I want to learn and work on. I will probably start with meditation as I still have some problems in that area.
To get myself back on track with my Year-And-A-Day beginner/kids series, I decided to start back up with easy lessons on the Elements.
I decided to start with Air. It is the first Element I invoke during Circle. And, as my last lesson was on Circles, this makes sense to me.
Air is the element of the mind. We take walks in the fresh air to clear our heads. For my kiddo, I will have him walk with me while we discuss the aspects of Air and how we use this Element everyday. His homework will be to journal his thoughts on Air.
General Air Correspondences
(taken from a few different books, including True Magick by Amber K and Earth Power by Scott Cunningham)
I managed to get behind on my weekly lessons with Eldest. So, I am posting a basic lesson plan for April to help me get back on track.
March 31: Description of grounding and why it is important.
April 7: Practice grounding (We will have some small grounding exercise every week).
April 14: Description of meditation.
April 21: Do a small meditation (about 10 minutes).
April 28: Discussion of what goes on in a Circle and why Grounding and Meditation are important to learn for Circle work.
Eldest will be going away for the summer to stay with my mom sometime in July. I am hoping to give him some small lessons he can work on while away from me. He can practice meditation and grounding when he goes to church with her. Hopefully this will help him to keep somewhat still and maybe focus on the priest. This would be nice if it works when he goes with Dad. Dad gets really frustrated when Eldest just wiggles the whole time hehe.
I decided that I would be working on my inner self this year. I want to see the magick in things again. When did that disappear? Oddly, I think it was when I started having kids. I guess my brain just said, “Ok. Now we have to be all adult-like and stop having fun.” Well, I am taking the fun back. I mentioned in an earlier post that I was going through a book everyday. I have really enjoyed it. And Mr. Penczak’s book has also been a delight to read each month.
Well, it seems that I will be adding to my witchy workload. Eldest has started to ask about my beliefs and why I do not always go to church with the rest of the family. He will be nine soon. I think he is old enough to learn about a few other religious beliefs.
The first step of our journey was to ask him if he would be interested in sitting down with me once a week to discuss what I do. I want to teach him, not force him.
Our first lesson will be sometime this week. I am going to have him help me pick out a three-ring-binder to use as a book of shadows. So, we will be discussing what a BoS is and how to use it. I will need to come up with a fun lesson plan for the next year or so. I have gotten some good ideas from Pooka Pages and I have Starhawk’s Circle Round.
My basic lesson plan for this March goes something like this:
March 10: Book of Shadows: What it is and how to use it. Homework: once per week, write an observation about how the seasons are changing.
March 17: Discuss Ostara/Vernal Equinox. Homework: Work in the garden (this is already one of his chores).
March 24: Brief discussion on the other Sabbats and how they fit into the changing of the seasons. I have no homework or project for this.
I will be working on a lesson plan for April this week. I am trying to think of some simple grounding lessons and exercises.
I have been doing a lot of cleansing the past couple of days. I thought it might make for a good blog post. I know there are lots of websites out there that probably already have all of this information, but it can’t hurt to add to it.
It has been years since I updated this blog. I made the decision to erase a few of my other posts as I think I wish to use this particular blog as a way of documenting my own personal spiritual growth. And other things.
I have kept up with doing a lesson everyday from Roderick’s book and am working on going through one lesson every month in Penczak’s book. The Inner Temple has 12 lessons in total – it seemed like Kismet.
So far, in my 3 days (today will be my 4th) of lessons, Roderick’s book is making me look into my past and feelings. Penczak is making me look inward. Both books are, so far, working well together.
There are many joys to be had in raising children, as well as many sorrows and trials. Raising children as a Pagan can be especially demanding:
When is a good time to discuss your religious beliefs?
How do you explain why you do not go to church when your child(ren)’s friends and parents go to church?
If you are not totally out of the broom closet, how do you explain to your child that what you do in a ritual needs to be kept quiet?
I am the only Pagan in my household (unless my children decide to follow in my footsteps). My husband is Catholic and my son goes to Sunday school at my husband’s church. I want my son (and eventually our new baby) to have exposure to multiple belief systems.
I do find it difficult to explain why mommy doesn’t go to daddy’s church. Something that is not made any easier by the fact that I am still in the closet in regards to my own mom, who is an adamant Catholic. My son will visit her during the summer and will come home preaching about God and Jesus. I’m fine with that, but I then find it more and more difficult to explain to him that not all of his friends are Catholic or even Christian and it is not always appropriate to suddenly burst into prayer or singing hymns. My mother is also a pre-Vatican 2 kind of Catholic, so she talks to him about hell and… well that really bothers me.
As a Wiccan kind of Pagan, I don’t believe in any hell other than the ones we create for ourselves. I don’t believe in blaming the devil/Satan (since I do not believe in Satan) for the evil wo/men do. I believe we need to blame the person who committed the evil. I’ve done pretty good getting that through my boy’s head. I tell him we are all free to decide how we act, and those very actions have consequences that could be good or bad. I guess it is my way of beginning to teach him one of the tenets of the Wiccan Rede.
Do you have any particular problems in dealing with being a Pagan and a parent? How do you overcome these?